[	Current Mood	|	sick	]
[	Current Music	|	Become the catalyst - All that remains	]

HAHAH! take that!
done done & done!
oh my god, i've beeen waiting for this day for dont know how many g***** years and finally its done ! hahaha.
Nope, its not very pain. yes i feel weird all the time now cause i have to clench my teeth 24/7 for 6 weeeks and now my face is so swollen. hahah i can still remember some doctor grabbing my chin right after the op and slapping me repeatedly to wake me up. Classsic.
however, im still having mixed feeeling now :( for
1) i look like someone who pop out of a horror movie. if they ever plan to make a sequel to The Maid, im sure i will pass the audition man. no make up needed somemore! i look like a phillipino ghost maid now ! HAHAH. and im sucha vain bitch. the very first thing i was concerned about was my nose! HAHA i dont want it to go big man. vain bitch.
2) i cant eat anything. i cant take pills. i have to pound them, mix it with water and sip it through a syringe. its fucking, and i say FUCKING disgusting. i almost puke every SINGLE time i take med and i cry after taking it because of the stupid gastric juice running up and down my throat and stomach. it has that stupid bitter aftertaste and i cant stop the nausea for a few hours. i spend my day dreading for the next time im gonna take med :( seee, i dont mind pain. i can take pain. i even consider spending money everyday to go to the hosp. so that they can inject me with the med. hahah. God has hit me at my weakest spot man. im no joking. im really having a hard time.
3) i got alot alot of blooody mucus and phelgm that keeps causing me to have breathing difficulty. i feel so lousy man. i dont smoke but i feel like i got lousier lungs than a smoker.
4) Food. no food. only hospital milk and juice which sucks to the core. like i said, its my weakest spot man. im so regretting all the moments where i resisted eating because im afraid to get fat. i promise, i really promise to decrease my calories-counting habits! please please, let these 6 weeks pass by swiftly. omg. its only DAY 6 and im complaining like an auntie.
5) im stuck at home.
sigh, but life will be so much better and bearable if i stop medications. im really fighting with my mom every time its time to take med.
help help help !